General Entry
Thursday, July 14, 2005
♥ 8:34 PM
Tonight the powerpoint group met online to discuss some details about the powerpoint that we are doing for the OCIP presentation. Actually it was almost done liao, just needed to iron out some details. The meeting was relatively short.
I got back all my mid year results liao and decided to talk about my feelings. Its a great disappointment for me. I got EOO for Biology, Maths and Chemistry. I pass Gp and got a C6.
I feel very tired and fustrated. I have studied very hard during the June holidays and only gone out for one day. In the end i still get such results. Its so disheartening. Going back to school, have to hear teachers saying that we did not study again and again. Sometimes, i wonder why should i still bother studying.
After some self reflections, i think it was due to a lack of practise. I can honestly said that i have studied hard so i think that the lack of practise contribute to me being nervous and doing badly.
My problems is never ending, my family problems is getting worse day by day. We thought that we could hang on for these few months but it was not to be. After 2 months of peace, we got a new problem. I am really tired, have to study and handle my family, i think i am gonna break down sooner or later. Maybe one day i will just break down and end it all.
To add on to it, my heart is attracted. At a time like this, i really dunno how to handle it. It seems that feelings made known will hurt our friendship. What should i do???
Prelims are coming and at the blink of an eye, i will be sitting at the table doing my A level exams. Its the worst period of my life. I have never felt so unprepared and so without confidence. Will i make it, i have no idea. The future is dark ahead of me.
