Prelims
Friday, September 30, 2005
♥ 11:17 PM
Got back all my prelim results liao. I sux and did very badly. I got CDD for maths, bio and chem respectively. Studied very hard and this still had to happen. Haizzz
Running and hiding
Sunday, September 25, 2005
♥ 10:08 PM
Sometimes i really dunno people. On one hand we all know that avoidance will not solve any problems and it will only accumulate it until you got a whole lot of shit waiting for you. Its always the same, my family got into trouble cause of some people who just refuse to face problems and keep avoiding it. In the end, who suffers, the people around the person who cause the trouble. Now its still the case, the family is clearly in trouble too but no one wants to admit it, face it and solve it. Its always running and running and hiding. How long can one hide men. People always say that maturity comes with age, however i do not agree. I have just seen too many people of age who has the same maturity of a kid. What is the world coming to now. Sometimes, i wonder if my ability to think and and look ahead is good or bad. On one hand, i can see issues clearly and try to help my family, but they just refuse to listen to me and i feel so tired, so restless. Maybe its time to give up, i have tried time and again to help but it proves pointless. I am very tired and i am feeling the toll on me. I have no one to talk to when i am down and stressed. This blog is my only avenue. As soon as i can, i will leave this house of troubles and problems. I will go away to a far place and change my name so as to free myself.
A Day At Sentosa
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
♥ 11:39 PM
After the biology paper, i rush home immediately as i have to meet the rest at Harbour Front MRT station at 11:30am. I bought about 60 packets of snacks and they were certainly shocked. Haha.
When i reached there, i was late by 20 min, Jay and Eunice was later than me.
We went to the nearby hawker centre and some of them had lunch, i had 2 bread on my way home so i just had a glass of grassjelly drink.
After that, we took the bus to Sentosa. First stop was watching Shi Ting's try at roller blading. I nearly wanted to die seeing her roller blade. She was afraid and had to be helped by eleanor, eunice and Shi Hui was getting very impatient. haha
The girls got into the sea and started playing while Dave, Jay, AYF and me were reluctant to go in. They tried to drag Jay in but failed. In the end all of us went to play in the sea and it was fun.
We played some frisbee game on the beach and well, it was the start of all the fun. But playing and swimming in the sea was the best.
We left Sentosa at about 7 i think and had dinner at Mac Donalds. After dinner was chatting and i reach home at around 10:30pm
End of prelims
♥ 11:34 PM
Yeah, the prelims finally ended with the biology MCQ paper today. I forgot my tie today and its a wednesday. At first i tried to wear a jacket and zip up straight up and try to smoke my way through. However, when i am at the hall, i realise that Miss Choong is checking everyone to make sure that they had a tie and opps, plan fail. Instead i had to run all the way to the library to borrow a tie. MCQ was ok except for a question which i got wrong.
Weekends...........Phew
Friday, September 16, 2005
♥ 6:01 PM
Weekends are finally here. Finally manage to survive the onslaught of the prelims. 2 more days and everything is over. Just had chemistry paper 1 and 2 today. Paper 2 is the most satisfying paper i have done throughout the whole exams. I managed to finished it 10 mins before it ends. However, I left a one mark question blank and later i found out that it was so easy. Before i went for paper 2, i has this feeling that Nucleophilic Addition is gonna come out and i read it and memorise before the paper. Thank GOD the mechanism really came out and it was the first question that i did. Haha. However paper 1 was a disaster for me i guess. I spent too much time on certain questions in front and end up with 3 mins for the last 10 questions. So you can imagine that i was rushing for mad during the last few minutes. So made lots of errors i guess.
Prelims.....
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
♥ 6:34 PM
Maths paper 1 and 2 down, Gp down, Biology paper 2 down and Chemistry paper 3 down. Having a headache now as i am typing this entry. Biology was ok but rather difficult. I actually took 1 Hr and 15 min to finish my structured questions. In the end i left a 2 mark structured question blank and was halfway through an 8 mark essay. Had chemistry paper 3 yesterday. Haiz, the paper was ok but i had no time to finish all the questions. Only managed 8 out of 10 questions. I really need to do faster to guarantee an A for my A levels. I think i am gonna flunk my maths. I left about 38 marks of blank for paper 1. The thing is i can do all the questions but no time again. Paper 2 was ok although i can't do the 3-D trigo question. I just can't visualise.
I really studied very hard for this prelims and this had to happen. Whats really wrong with me. I also cannot tell. Maybe i am just dumb and not fated to do well. I really need to do well as my family's hope are on me. Living is so tiring..............................................................................
Celebration Sunday
♥ 6:19 PM
Hmm, haven been blogging lately due to prelims. On sunday, i went to church for celebration sunday to mark the end of the purpose driven life (PDL) campaign. From this PDL campaign, i have really learnt a lot from it. When the campaign was about to start, we were given a card and we had to write down our purpose in life. I wrote NO IDEA and it was flashed on the screen on sunday. The response on the card brought laughter from the audience but at that point of time, i really had no idea what my purpose in life was. As a student our main task is to study and get good results and take part in CCA. So if this was my purpose, i would be lost when i stop studying. A typical person's life would be work, play and die. How sad is that. We all only get a chance to live and if life is only about these 3 things, then how worthless life is. After the PDL campaign, i have realise my purpose, which is to live a life of knowing GOD and serving him. Only as such could we make living meaningful and life not worthless but worth beyond the world's treasures. I am glad that i have got to know GOD through Jonathan and i really can't thank him for the things he have brought me to know.
From Jonathan, i realise that an entry of mine has cause displeasure with a friend. I have removed it and i want to apologise for it.
09 September 2005, Friday
Friday, September 09, 2005
♥ 11:43 PM
Finished the last episode of War and Beauty today. Its a nice show with sad ending however. Another sad drama which fail to move my heart. Anyway, War and Beauty is about the fights between the imperial concubines and the Empress with 2 men involved. One is a doctor and another is a guard who saved the emperor's life. In the end, the doctor died with a concubine and the women that the guard love died too.
Studied chemistry today. Started to memorise all the important stuff. I feel very bored reading the same stuff over and over again. But haiz, what to do.
Restless
♥ 12:03 AM
Quiet day today without the empress and princess at home. Woke up a little late today. Had breakfast, read papers and then sweep the floor. After that, it was studying biology. Managed to last for 3 hrs studying all the topics for year 2. Then i went to have lunch. Hmm been feeling restless lately, not much mood to study. Whole day only managed about 6 hours of study. As my nick suggest, i am in search of my lost motivation. The great motivation which push me to study for long hours and excel. Haiz.....
Change my blog picture liao. Haha, love this car.
Talk to Shu Wen at night. About life and stuff.............
Maths Day
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
♥ 8:58 PM
Did maths today. Had loads of fun doing the prelim questions. Now only got Integration and Graphs left to practice. Now i feel rather confident about my maths. Blogging keeps me sane and let me destess from studies. Tomorrow mum and sis is at home, i am going to AMK library to study to escape them.
I think i gonna change my blog layout after my exams. Gonna design it myself....somehow. Haha
Studying at AMK library
Monday, September 05, 2005
♥ 10:35 PM
Today i went to AMK library to study with SH and El. Did maths the whole day there. It a nice place with great environment and i think i am very productive there. Taught SH and El some maths and a physics question for el. ( I drop phy liao...) At around 12 plus, we had lunch at the nearby hawker centre. I had noodles and later we shared a big bowl of Ice Kachang. After lunch, we went to look for I weekly, but could not find any. Went back and continue to study till abt 8 and i left the library.
Revision going quite smoothly, shall study at the library again. I like it there.
Day 3 Of Preparation For Prelims
Friday, September 02, 2005
♥ 5:01 PM
Today is Day 3 of preparation of prelims. Day 1 i did AJC prelim maths paper, day 2 i studied half of the whole of biology. Today i just finished all of chemistry except for Organic Chemistry and Environmental Chemistry. Hmm quite on target. I have allocated 4 days for each subject and should be able to be quite well prepared for the examination.
Yesterday was the finals for project Superstar and my guess was right. Wei Lian won. Haha. I support him and think that many people like my sis discriminate against him cause of his blindness. They should really judge by their ears. He can sing well and with lots of emotion too. Kelly's not too bad either.
Feeling bored now after studying. Shall go do some practise later...
