Tuesday, December 30, 2008
♥ 11:43 PM
Life has just thrown me another big shit and as the saying goes, it never rains but pours which can describe what I am going through fully. First up are my totally crappy and unexpected results which are so bad that I am still recovering from the shock of it. To add on to all this, my dad burn a hole in my Standard Chartered Marathon Finisher shirt and he threw away one of my shirt which was a gift from my friend just because there was a hole and he did not even bother to ask me. I am like under great trauma and stress and after hearing all this, I almost wanted to break down. But then again, it’s not new that life always gives me shit and everything that can go wrong will go wrong on me. But then again, after being depress for 2 days, it is time to move on, put everything behind and start afresh to do better for my next 5 semester. On a side note, I have decided to submit for a review for my Stats, Econs and Maketing as I am really quite confident of it so I have done all I could and the rest is up to God to decide how he wants me to be in his plan.
My health has taken a toll recently with my gastritis coming back and it is really painful at night and it keeps me awake and in the day, it is always there with a lingering pain all the time and after seeing the doc, the medication do not seem to work. If after one week and its still like this, I am going to another doc.
This episode has made me realized that I really have lots of great friends who are very encouraging and Hui Jia was like hey dun be sad, we go find you for dinner after work and so met up with KH, Phebe, Song, Hui Jia and Zhi Kai (one of Song’s friend) for dinner and ice cream on Monday which was really helpful to help clear my mind and take it off the results and stuff, but then again, its not going to be that easy, but I will try my best and think ahead.
One thing I also learn and can feel is that God is trying to tell me how he can give and also take away everything from us, getting in to NTU was a miracle for me and I thought I was off to a good start but along the way, I think I lost myself and have this I am so great and so good kinda thought and started to rely on myself and left God out of the picture. But this has really made me wake up and really rethink what is more to my life that I have fail to see and left out and how I can realign my life. I am going to prayfully ask God as I do my reflections this year.
I am not going to take my mother for granted again as she stood by me that night when I was so sad and comfort me greatly.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
♥ 10:16 PM
Sam See invited us to her house for a Christmas Gathering on the 23rd and I am so glad to be there. After work that day, I went for tuition before heading to her house and when the train went past Sembawang I was so tempted to go back home where I have mails waiting for me and also to have a good rest, but something tells me that I should not miss it so I went and well I never regret although I reached back late. After getting the logcake from Breadtalk, I took a cab to her house.
Many people were here and I was like wow, finally get to see and catch up with many of my church friends whom I have not seen for a long time due to my busy schedule. There were lots of food too and I ate lots and lots. We sang a birthday song for Sam’s dad too as his birthday is on 25th Dec.
Well I was really happy to be there and being together with all my friends and just catching up with each other and enjoying food under the night sky. Well the topic was soon about how I have been missing in church and cell as I am really packed and busy so I have been missing some times. Well I have nothing to say, just that I am busy and I will make time as much as I can.
At around 10 plus, most people are starting to go back and me too cause of work the next day.
Half day today due to Christmas eve and I never really do any work, just clear up some documentation and after that we went for lunch with the boss. After the lunch, I headed down to Wan Yi’s place for our Christmas celebration with the Hall Production people. We watched Red Cliff, played card games and there was a gift exchange which I did not prepare for due to late notification by Liang Ying. At around 5, I went back.
Initially wanted to go for Joy’s church thing, but I am feeling very tired and listless so I decided to slack at home instead. The feeling is nice. Finally a break.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
♥ 9:14 PM
I survived the first week without my boss although I still need to call her occasionally to check up some urgent matters but pretty much I survived the CAC although one was converted into a learning session for me and now I understand my job much better.
Garang Guni today for Hall production was super tiring. For starters, many people did not turn up last minute and thus we had to cover more blocks. We started in the morning and work all the way to 5 plus without lunch break in between and I am glad for the heavy LJS breakfast. So we started when most of the people arrived and started going around collecting newspapers, old clothes and electrical appliances. It was super tiring and to make matters worse, my knee starting hurting real bad and I could barely walk but just tahan all the way. I got a surprise when we saw Sheena cause she was living in one of the blocks that we were collecting the papers and I had toilet break and also some ice cream from her.
When it ended, we went for dinner before heading back and now I am just going to slack and ice my hurting knee.
Monday, December 15, 2008
♥ 11:58 PM
Many things happen since the Standard Chartered Marathon and I haven been updating due to my very busy schedule of working in the day and either meeting up with sponsors, joint hall meeting, business meetings and the occasional meeting up with friends.
The first update was the NBS bash which I went alone cause 2 people pang sei me, but no worries, I know many people in NBS and so friends are still every where, think that is an advantage for being able to talk a lot. Well initially was quite boring till some people start to dance and the worse part is the free flow drinks where everyone just crowds around the bar like some yao gui and I was super sianz so i went to the outside bar to get a drink without queue. After that was some dancing before leaving at around 1:30 as I had to work the next day.
Thursday was store cleaning up and packing day and well I am glad that majority came down and we managed to clear up the store and now it is real neat and tidy and look proper. We are also getting fans installed. One upz for Business Committee. Good job guys.
Saturday was the first BS meeting and we are formally introduced to the various directors and also the opening speech by our new president, Roy. Well I think this is really the place for me and I enjoy the crowd. We had mahjong and poker after the meeting, and thereafter dinner and ended it off with a drink a Harry's Bar.
My most satisfying program during this holidays is the implementation of the random outing. We went out on Sunday made up of the most random people. The group had Sarah, Han Ming, Sok Peng, Evandne, Xin Hui, Liang Ying and I. We went bowling, dinner and movie. Well it was really fun and it turn out well and everyone could make it. Shall start planning for the next one till XH comes back from Taiwan.
This whole week is going to be packed with meetings again and my leg is still not recovering. I want to run soon.
Monday, December 08, 2008
♥ 11:05 AM
6 Hr 50 Min of torture, 42.195km and the standard chartered marathon is over and I have completed it. To mark our finishing, we each got a medal and a shirt with finisher of 42.195km.
The run started at 5:30 and I managed to run with Liang Ying till 18km and then we started to walk a bit. I went on ahead of him but at around 23KM, my right leg got a serious cramp and I fell down and there was a lump at my calf and it was freaking pain. Luckily someone came to help me stretch my legs and gave me some deep heat muscle rub. After that I pretty much walked all the way with my legs hurting like crazy and every step was painful. At around 200m left, I started to try to run all the way to the finishing and finally it was over.
After the run, we went to grab a bite before going back to rest and take a nice sleep. I developed a fever and quickly took 2 panadols before going to sleep after taking a nice warm shower. I woke up at around 6:15 to go to Li Xuan’s birthday party. I almost did not want to go cause my legs were real bad and travelling there was really slow. My legs cramp like almost every 5 minute of walking and Yi Ting was laughing all the way.
I am going to just relax and rest the whole day with minimal walking and last night I was feeling like shit, I am super cold and my both my legs are painful and it cramp. Thank God this morning it was ok and not cramping though still hurting.
A nice but painful experience
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
♥ 11:38 PM
Started work on Monday with BNP Paribas for my internship and I am attached to the compliance department. During the first day, we had 2 briefing one by the head of compliance and the other by the deputy HR head. After which we went for a welcome lunch at coffee club express and work starts a little for me. Basically my job is to check for AML and CTF and checking if a client is safe to work with or not. There is lots of procedures and more new things to learn everyday but I think once I get the hang of it, it should be a pretty mundane job. Well think it is a great place to work just that the people there are quiet and the department do not eat together. Everyone is just doing their own work.
Started training again after a long time and I fret for my IPPT on saturday and also the standard chartered 42km on sunday.
