Tuesday, December 30, 2008
♥ 11:43 PM
Life has just thrown me another big shit and as the saying goes, it never rains but pours which can describe what I am going through fully. First up are my totally crappy and unexpected results which are so bad that I am still recovering from the shock of it. To add on to all this, my dad burn a hole in my Standard Chartered Marathon Finisher shirt and he threw away one of my shirt which was a gift from my friend just because there was a hole and he did not even bother to ask me. I am like under great trauma and stress and after hearing all this, I almost wanted to break down. But then again, it’s not new that life always gives me shit and everything that can go wrong will go wrong on me. But then again, after being depress for 2 days, it is time to move on, put everything behind and start afresh to do better for my next 5 semester. On a side note, I have decided to submit for a review for my Stats, Econs and Maketing as I am really quite confident of it so I have done all I could and the rest is up to God to decide how he wants me to be in his plan.
My health has taken a toll recently with my gastritis coming back and it is really painful at night and it keeps me awake and in the day, it is always there with a lingering pain all the time and after seeing the doc, the medication do not seem to work. If after one week and its still like this, I am going to another doc.
This episode has made me realized that I really have lots of great friends who are very encouraging and Hui Jia was like hey dun be sad, we go find you for dinner after work and so met up with KH, Phebe, Song, Hui Jia and Zhi Kai (one of Song’s friend) for dinner and ice cream on Monday which was really helpful to help clear my mind and take it off the results and stuff, but then again, its not going to be that easy, but I will try my best and think ahead.
One thing I also learn and can feel is that God is trying to tell me how he can give and also take away everything from us, getting in to NTU was a miracle for me and I thought I was off to a good start but along the way, I think I lost myself and have this I am so great and so good kinda thought and started to rely on myself and left God out of the picture. But this has really made me wake up and really rethink what is more to my life that I have fail to see and left out and how I can realign my life. I am going to prayfully ask God as I do my reflections this year.
I am not going to take my mother for granted again as she stood by me that night when I was so sad and comfort me greatly.
